i do not know whether to be happy or to be sad.
something bad is going to happen. i know it. i feel it. i have been expecting it.
i should feel extremely bad because this would wound me. being a person with a lot of pride, i do not think i will be able to take all the talk behind my back… but then, the people who will be talking are people who know nothing of what transpired. they do not know the reasons behind anything nor the sacrifices made to make things work.
on the bright side, i’m wearing new shoes. gorgeous.