You have the right to complain.

Due to the weather not working well with my immune system, I spent the day at home and chanced upon seeing the live broadcast of SONA. I wasn’t really planning on seeing it and was actually asleep on the couch nursing body malaise but for some reason, I woke up as the coverage was starting.

Because I am your typical net addict, I was on fb and twitter while watching Pnoy give his speech. Now, there were those who did great publich service like @Karen_DaviLa who provided real-time updates (woot! woot!) and then there are those who complained about every sentence that came out of the President’s mouth.

It makes me think of how much change can come out of all the yapping and complaining. Will all your criticism build roads? Feed the hungry? Educate our children? Make a better future? I wonder how much the effigy contributed to our economic growth? How did the rally and the chaos improve your life status? How much of the budget will have to go to fixing ruined public property? I say, the call is for vigilance and not pessimism. Don’t confuse the two!

You absolutely have the right to complain but as you do, can you think of what you have contributed to our country ? Have you volunteered for a worthwhile cause? Not cheat on your taxes? Followed traffic rules? Reported law violators? Recycled? Opened your mind for possibilities? Here’s a thought: The Philippines is not just Noynoy Aquino, it’s made up of Filipinos — all 101M of us.

Mind you, it’s a long way to go and the government has not earned my praise yet but I know my responsibility and I accept it. My country needs me to change with it and I shall.

So to you — Don’t just be a Filipino. Be an active Filipino!

Links to SONA 2012:


ambisyon 2010

April 7 was atypical of my Friday nights. For the first time since I was a regular student, I found myself in the familiar insides of the UP Film Institute. I had heard about Ambisyon 2010 in a news segment while facebooking my evening away and though I have often been only present in outskirts of social awareness, I had the familiar inclination of wanting to be involved, to participate and once again, be inspired to part of a society that wants to make a difference.

The project was a collection of 20 short films, running at four to eight minutes in length and directed by brilliant indie filmmakers. Hats off to Paolo Villaluna, Ditsi Carolina, Emmanuel Dela Cruz, Kiri Dalena, Henry Frejas, Jeffrey Jeturian, Jade Castro, Jim Libiran, Erik Matti, Brillante Mendoza, Ellen Ramos, John Red, Raymond Red, Jerrold Tarog, John Torres, Paolo Villaluna, Sunshine Matutina, Pam Miras, Aissa Penafiel, Emerson Reyes, Gym Lumbera and McRobert Nacario.

“Ganito tayo ngayon, Paano na tayo bukas?” was directed by Jeffrey Jeturian and is the sole film that received an X-rating from the MTRCB. The ridiculous “Censorship High Court of the Philippines” claimed that the film undermines the faith and confidence of the people in government. What is there to undermine anyway? The current administration has successfully lost the faith and confidence of the Filipino people a long time ago!

“Ayos Ka” by Brillante Mendoza initially also had an X-rating but it was lowered down to an R-rating after a re-review. MTRCB said that this film was injurious to the prestige of the Republic of the Philippines and its people. Was this film injurious to the prestige of the Republic because it showed a part of the Philippines that they would rather ignore? I think it is more disgraceful that we have such hypocrites running important offices in our country.

Except for the opening part, the majority of Kiri Dalena’s “Requiem for M” only showed images but it conveyed a very strong message. It tackled the Maguindanao Massacre and was the heaviest of all the films I saw that night. Kiri said that “Even if you believe you can’t achieve justice, you still have to keep telling the story” and she did it well because that night, I and the whole world listened.

Of all the 20 films, I cried my heart out with Ditsi Carolino’s Lupang Hinirang. She showed the plight of the Sumilao farmers to fight for their 144-hectares of land and re-reminded all of us that despite the 20-years of agrarian reform in the country, we still have thousands of farmers who are still fighting for land that should have been given to to them decades ago. This film had made me realize how much we fail a lot of our countrymen. I have time and again complained about people from the provinces trying their luck and squatting all over metro manila. In my mind, these people are disillusioned and unpersevering… and then I realized what chance did they have when they have nothing but empty promises?

Each of the 20 films have their own statements and though I may not agree with all of them, each had enlightened me to not waste my vote, to live each day supporting at least one cause, and to never forget.

To know more about each short film, read on at

I will end this post by borrowing a line from the project itself and hopefully, like me, you will also be searching for your own answer.

amBisyon2010 brings together the dreams of a nation—and the possibility of change.
Ikaw, ano ang ambisyon mo?

50 things before i die… REVISITED

I made an uncompleted list in April 2006. 3 years later, let’s see how far I’ve gone…

  1. bungee… it’s so cool when fran (a 62 yr. old amazing race contestant) did it.
  2. 5,000 hits on this blogsite
  3. see the eiffel tower
  4. have a 5-yr relationship (hopefully with someone else… harharhar!)
  5. have a star (one ‘r’) named after me
  6. ride a plane to anywhere
  7. go back to the planetarium
  8. gym for 6 straight months
  9. go to a cheesy valentine’s day concert
  10. ask a guy out on a date
  11. marry… (i think i want this….)
  12. own 50 pairs of shoes (all usable during the same point in time)
  13. have my own condo… (paid and under my name)
  14. have a roadtrip with me on the wheel…
  15. play in a frisbee game… jogadores seem to love it =D
  16. blow 20K in shopping for clothes and shoes
  17. buy dad a car
  18. have a retreat
  19. publish a poem
  20. graduate… (groan!)
  21. finish a book at starbucks
  22. watch jaws again…
  23. go to the surf shack
  24. learn to paint (so i can and nurture the frustrated artist in me)
  25. Host my parents’ golden anniversary
  26. Learn to ride a bike
  27. Learn to swim (…then learn to scuba dive!)
  28. swim with jellyfishes
  29. play pusoy challenge again…
  30. complete the nancy drew hardbound series


I used to close my heart
the same way people close doors at night…
And bolted not to let anybody in.
I surround myself with people
who care nothing about me.
I use them and I let them use me,
waking up everyday two steps nearer to
my eventual death.
My life was one great party…
something vaguely exciting that you do not remember the day after…
nothing better than an empty bottle of tequila.
Nothing to look forward to… nothing to look back at.
I remember the day I knew I wanted you,
how I didn’t know anything about you,
but i wanted to do something so i can find out.
I remember falling in love.
I remember wishing you had fallen in love.
I remember tears… thinking you were still in love…
with somebody else other than me.
i walked away a thousand times without you knowing.
in my head, i said goodbye to you everyday
seeking courage to be able to say it to your face…
and miserably failing when your lips start to touch mine.
when you hold me, time stops every time.
and all that matters is you and me.
Infinite possibilities.
Promises of happiness.
and the question of “Are you ready to be with me?”
It was like being five during christmas, the day
you said I can tell the world about us.
I was hopelessly happy,
idiotically smiling,
and eternally thankful.
Forever praying that you do not forget being in love.
It was time to stop looking for paradise…
because I am already living it.
Did you see it when the whole world started crashing?
When I realized that there existed one moment
that you spent with another love.
Nobody has ever shattered my world more than
hearing her words come out of your mouth.
I wondered if you heard my heart break?
I wondered if I can break your heart if I start leaving?
I wanted you to die the same way I was dying…
I do not know any other way to live my life…
only that i dream of sleeping beside you every night
and waking up to your smiles
wanting to share every happy moment of your life
and stopping every tear, healing every ounce of pain
before you can even feel them
i knew then that if i let go of your hand
i would learn the meaning of regret…
and the eventual death that seemed so far away
will happen tonight.
my life became yours
the day i became your reason for living
i trust you despite the challenges of our faith —-
love conquers mistakes.
i sleep tonight with your words comforting me…
and i will wake up with your love as my strength…
and dream awake of our dreams…
I am absolutely impatient.
wanting them to come true as fast as time permits
my heart seeks things i never knew i wanted…
your house, your name,
your kids, your dreams,
your future, our future…
i live my life the only way i know how…
in your embrace,
in your faith,
in your love.
in your meaning of forever.